Confusion

I really hate being confused. I don't want to miss out on anything. That's why I stay alert most of the time just in case anything bad happens. If I make one tiny mistake, then I crash and have to start all over again which is hard work. I want to learn more and be there. I want to stay awake and know what other people are talking about. I like to be active. It is a great feeling when you know a lot. But when you are out, you become too confused and clueless.